Dear Reese,
I’ve felt a little extra tired and emotionally numb lately. The Morgan Way of doing everything all at once catches up to me, and my focus gets scattered, and my body gets dehydrated.
But then I am joyful and okay and laughing with you, and with my D&D group over lunch, and with my family.
Yet, when I get good news, I’m having trouble basking in it. Or believing it. I didn’t feel nearly the relief I thought I would at my condo selling after months of anxiety about what it would mean if it didn’t. I am relieved, of course. And so excited for our new house. They were putting the plaster on late into the evening tonight, and I can’t wait to see it tomorrow.
But I think I’ve piled too many things too high — at work and in life — in a heavy world, and I’m having trouble accessing how I feel. It’s taking a lot more energy than usual to show up how I want to. You’re my priority, always, and I feel most present and happy when I let myself be fully present with you. It’s hard to turn off my brain.
I’m going to keep working on slowing down — I can’t control the pace of life right now, but I can work on getting a better rein on my energy. Less frantic, more intentional.
Perhaps we can start doing some meditation together.
Love,
Mama