Dear Reese,
My nervous system is too activated after work today. Parenting demands self-regulation, so I dance in the kitchen with you, but then do too many things at once while we sit on the floor together — answer work messages, talk to MorMor, give you a hug.
My brain demands escapism but gets stuck in a scrolling doomsday once you’re asleep. That means I’m up too late and still haven’t felt like I’ve relaxed, but have seen a decent number of old movie clips that Instagram keeps putting in my algorithm. I now have an urge to watch The Nanny Diaries.
This is one reason I’m trying to push off screen time for you until later — most of it just feels addictive and brain-melting. At least the excessive scrolling part. I used to be able to watch a show uninterrupted all day long, and now my brain wants to be doing ten things at once. You’ll learn that multitasking is a myth — we can only focus on one thing at a time so our brain just ping pongs back and forth until we’re exhausted and not really getting anything done.
Focus.
It’s like when you get overstimulated by dozens of toys out on the floor, not really playing with any of them. Sometimes you just need to crawl away. I have tried to only put one toy out at a time lately. Like everything, mixed success.
Love,
Mama